so first, this is a copy and paste email I sent my work:
I just wanted to send you an email to thank you so much for all your support and kind words.
As you may have known I have been away Tuesday and Wednesday from work. My dad has taken a turn for the worst and on Tuesday informed us all that he is ready to go. He is not in any pain the Saannich Peninsula hospital has been great to him and he's very comfortable. He has said what he needs to say and has done what he needs to and is emotionally ready to depart for whatever comes next. My dad has a wonderful sense of humour though this all, and if everyone ever wonders where I get mine it's definitely from him. For instance, when he had the conversation with his wife about being ready and it was agreed upon that He was ready, she was ready and the kids were ready he remarked " Well we're all ready, and it's all agreed upon.... now who do I call?" It has given my family great strength to see him so confident in this decision, but it's also given us great sadness as his body is very strong. His Doctor has explained that besides the Cancer my dad is a very healthy 61 year old! Usually when people get cancer and are older the cancer will put a strain on their body and their kidneys will fail etc. This will not be the case with my dad and we will all (my dad included! Just have to be patient while this process happens) On Wednesday the Doctor said a week.
Thank you to everyone for the help and coverage on Tuesday, we really thought my dad would pass on these days but he's still here with us today. I am actually now on "vacation" Thursday and Friday as i'm supposed to be at Mount Washington with Jonny's parents who arrived yesterday. We laugh about the poor timing, and will hopefully be able to go on a ski trip next year.
If my dad does pass this weekend, which is looking likely, I would be taking my 3 Bereavement leave day's Mon/Tues/Wed and I just wanted to keep you guys all in the loop for what to expect in the coming week.
Thank you all for your support during this time.
now for the final. My dad passed away last night at 2:00am. I felt very comfortable with the time I spent with him, the words I chose, and the time we had.
I am however, very sad that this has passed. As anyone that has had someone close to them pass knows, this all feels very surreal. It doesn't feel as if this is 'happening to me'. I can't articulate my feelings, I am OK I had my time, I had what I needed, but it's still hard. It feels like i've been watching a movie about all of this....
even though I haven't been able to respond individually thank you for your kind thoughts, even if you aren't very close to me or we hardly speak at all your words meant to world to me.
once again, the words of my dad's wife speak volumes over mine http://rootinforron.blogspot.com/
love kirsten xxxx